C Is For Cookie… Not This Time!

I have pretty much been open here, have clearly stated what is private and what is shareable in my life.  I drew clear boundaries and lines and for the most part that has always been respected.  I struggle with those boundaries quite frequently.   So, now the time has come where once again the lines are going to become blurred.

I am a very private person with a close intimate group of friends and while I realize the life that I have created in the Social Media world is very public, I have for the last several years been able to keep a good chunk of my private life just that private.  I have also, clearly, stated that, this blog, my words, I will use to help, inform and even entertain.  I always hope that my words, thoughts and experiences can help someone as they struggle or celebrate the same things that I do, that perhaps, I can make someone feel not so alone.

With those thoughts warring in my head, heart and soul, I have come to a very hard decision.  I have opted to share with you all, something that is going to challenge me in a way that I have never known.  I wish that I could keep this private, that I could be brave enough to not share but I’m not.  I am going to need you all and perhaps, I can help someone.  Perhaps, this particular struggle will not be so much about me.

I have breast cancer.

I’m going to let that sink in for a moment.  It’s ok, take a deep breath.  I apologize if this comes as a shock, I was rather shocked, myself.  Yes, I’m under 40.  No, there is no history in my family.  Yes, I am slightly worried.  Yes, I have told my family.  I apologize if I haven’t told you myself and you are finding out this way.

As for the rest, I don’t know all the nitty gritty.  I do know that I have the most common type of Cancer.  There is a high survival rate.  I am headed to a surgeon, yes, surgery will be involved, DUH, rite?  After, I meet with the surgeon, a plan will be determined. It seems fairly straight forward and easy, however, I doubt that it will be either of those things!!

I will be taking y’all along through all of this.  I am certain some days will be better than others and there may or not be a rant or two tossed out.  I have an amazing family, fantastic friends and I know that I’m not alone.  I thank all of you for this.

 

p.s. Please send cookies!!!

 

 

79 Replies to “C Is For Cookie… Not This Time!”

  1. Brandie I’m devastated to hear this, yet so happy to hear that the long-term treatment sounds so positive. I’ll continue to be here if you need anything, now more than ever.

    Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers…

  2. First, I’m so sorry that you’re having to go through this. I wish you didn’t have to but if anyone can beat this, you can with your positive energy, attitude and sass – and you will. You will because you’ll have an entire community praying for you, rooting for you and cheering for you (and hopefully sending cookies too)! I’m here if you need a friend. xoxo

  3. Brandie,

    Whatever I can do to help you I will do. I don’t care if it’s sending you a joke a day, beating Sam up for you, or whatever else you need. I will be thinking of you, dearest, every day, and try your best to keep us posted as you can.

    Hugs, prayers, best thoughts – if anyone can come through with flying colors it’s you.

    1. Awwww, Thanks, M!! I plan on still beating up Sam, tho!! Coz, really that is just to much fun! And, yes, I will be keeping everyone posted! Hmm, Mebbe I need a hashtag 😉

  4. Brandie I have no words to express my sentiments right now! My prayers, my thoughts, my heart goes out to you!
    You’re strong, and you’ll get through this.
    In your down times remember:
    You’re not alone ~ some many of us behind you!

    We love you Brandie and thank you for sharing so much of yourself with us.

  5. We’ve met online (in many chats) and I do intuitively feel a closer than just online relationship:-) I’d like to offer you my ongoing support, as many gave support to us 5 years ago when my partner was diagnosed on May 1 2007 with a very aggressive, very common, yet highly curable (they told us) Lymphoma. That is what they told us 5 years ago!

    I am sending you all our positive thoughts along with some home baked virtual cookies. Please feel free to call on me for anything, anytime.

  6. Aw Brandie 😐 You can have all my cookies 🙂 You know we’re here and should know it’ll be alright! Just stay strong, always around to help in any way I can!

  7. Hi Brandie ~ We only recently met, but I knew right away that I liked you. What’s not to like, right? 🙂 I’m sorry you’re having to go through this and like so many others I’ll be thinking of and praying for you.

  8. Brandie,

    You must feel like you are on a roller coaster right now. Please know I’m here to help in any way I can. My mother went through this many years ago and is doing wonderfully. It’s all in the attitude, and you’ve got it! Wish I wasn’t so far away right now, but I am always here to listen and talk. Big, big hug.
    xoxo,
    Anne

  9. I’m so sorry to hear this 🙁 Hopefully you know that so many of your Twitter chat friends are thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way.

    Hang in there and let me know when you want your honorary “Mostyn Medical Mayhem” status designation,
    Sharon
    @sharonmostyn

  10. Brandie,

    I’ve only met you once, but I’ll always consider you a special friend who really revealed to me that there are great people out there like yourself that will try to communicate with me, and now I’m even more brave in getting myself out there in IRL! Because of that, I believe in my heart you’ll power your way through this. You are already brave for sharing this. Mamma mia, that cancer doesn’t know what world of sass it’s gotten itself into! Now I’ve got to hit you up for your address!

    |,,|/ (sign for love) u,

    Anne

  11. Brandie,
    So sorry to hear the news yet so grateful you have chosen to let others in rather than hide. I can’t begin to imagine the feeling but know that I will do whatever I can whether it’s coffee, cookies or hopefully a hug from time to time. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Wishing you all the best for a positive outcome, you positive attitude is a great start.
    Best
    Joe

    1. Thanks Joe!! Yes, finally my warped sense of humour is coming in handy!! And, I will take you up on that coffee as soon as I get back to that side of the world!!

  12. Oh my love. I am so sorry to read this. If there is anything I know about you, it is that you have the right attitude to do what it takes. All of my thoughts and prayers and cookies are with you. Whatever Sean offers, I double it (clearly so you’ll like me more than him)!

    Love you tons!

  13. Brandie,

    I will keep you in my prayers. I have been down that path dealing with various cancer in our family. If you ever just need an ear to bend, you have my number.

    Sending you big hugs and I’ll even try to bring some homemade cookies with me on my next trip to SAC…just for you 😉

  14. Brandie, you will BE FINE! Catching it early is key. My mom survived and lived to a ripe old 89! She became an advocate and counselor for other women with breast cancer. Later, she formed a group of survivors – most of whom had radical mastectomies as that was what they did then – who met for lunch once a month. They dubbed themselves, “The Boob Girls” and their lunches were celebrations of life!

    YOU celebrate your life ’cause YOU will be fine, I’m sure of it! Xoxo

  15. Brandie,

    I can only imagine how you are feeling right now. You have given so much to so many peeps who have since become firm friends. Many people know people just because of you.

    Given your blog, sharing your story seems like a natural step. You are courageous there is no question. I’m so proud of you.

    I’m with Anne. Sparkle and Sass can go along way. This is a time for friends to rally round.

    Community is a big C too. And Cookies can’t hurt. Hugs.

    Nick

  16. Brandie –

    I’m so sorry to hear this and wish you well. I’m not sure how I can best help, other than share that two of my sisters have recently had breast cancer, the second last year. Hers was a very aggressive form and they attacked it aggressively.

    I’m pleased to say both are doing very well with a positive prognosis for the long term.

    Sending the good vibes from the North.

    All the best,

    ~ Patrick

  17. Brandie, this such a shock to read, I am so sorry…. No words come close, so just know our thoughts and prayers are with you as you move forward in this journey.

  18. Wow! You KNOW you’re getting a phone call! All of a sudden being on Vicodin for a measly Wisdom Tooth Extraction seems pretty petty. I’m here to support you- let me know if there’s anything I can do to help. Terribly sorry to hear this, expecting the best (you know how us stubborn optimists can be).

  19. Brandie, I’m so sorry to hear this news. My thoughts and prayers are with you. I’m always here to lend an ear if you need a friend to talk to – I’ll be calling you soon to check up on you (and to get an address to send a fresh batch of cookies to). You’re a strong woman – with a bunch of friends who want to see to it that you beat this. We’re here to support you.

  20. Brandie,

    The news you shared in this post weighs heavily on my heart. Words seem insufficient right now to express the thoughts that tumble through my head in response to this. Every sentence I begin typing, I delete. Each proves such a woefully inadequate expression of what I feel.

    Your news is shocking. Your attitude is inspiring. You will be in my prayers.

    Jim

  21. Sending cookies and positive thoughts, Brandie!

    That you’re young, healthy (in other respects) and caught it early are good signs. Treatment can be tough, but the survival rate (as you point out) is high. You’re going to come out of this OK. I really believe that.

    Feel free to share with #UsGuys and #UsGals. I can tell you from my own experience last year, when my Dad had serious medical troubles, that having a virtual community where you can just relax and ease your mind for a while, is an enormous help. And a positive attitude makes a big difference.

    Best wishes,

    Karen

  22. Brandie, I can’t believe the news. I was really sorry to hear this, you know- you are one tough cookie and one hell of an amazing woman, I know you are going to be okay.

    I am sure though, right now these words can’t relief the stress or worry you must be going through. I can’t even imagine. I am so touched and glad you shared this with us and are talking to us about it. You help people all the time, all these good vibes and positive energy you put out, – *know* they are all flowing back to you in multiplying magnitudes. Everything is going to be okay. In the meantime, the journey is scary- we are all here, and for the course of this, I am here if there is anything we can do. Thank you for putting it all out there Brandie, we love you.

    – so…cookies? 🙂

    1. Awww, Thanks, Mila! It’s going to be interesting! I appreciate your support and know y’all are there!!! Will let you know my favs soon!!

  23. Brandie–

    Thank you for sharing this terrible news with us. Committing these thoughts to virtual paper in this public way is a very brave act and I admire you for taking this step since it allows us, your virtual community, to support you at this difficult time.

    Sending you positive thoughts and virtual hugs to help give you the strength to get through this terrible disease.

    All my best,
    Heidi

  24. Brandie,

    You’ll have a place in my thoughts and prayers. “Chocolate cake” is a double-C, and a “Comfort food” that can provide a bit of variety from the cookies you’re bound to receive. Lemme know and I’ll bake one for you. Skype/Twitter/Facebook/smoke signals — OK, maybe not so much the last one — I’m here for you, too.

    Mark

  25. Brandie, you know, you are loved by so many people, even those in these wee little computers! Those of us in the #usguys stream, (well, in any form of SoMe) adore you and only wish the best for you! Praying for you and will be keeping up with you! <3

      1. Thanks, Mimi!! I like the way you think!! Hmm, perhaps I was limiting myself with just cookies, should have said all things sweet that start with “C”!!!

  26. Wow.

    I just got off the phone with Ray. He said I needed to read this blog post. I’m glad he did.

    Wow.

    Let me know what I can do, if there is anything. Unfortunately, I feel like an old pro about this stuff, between family history, friends, and personal experience. For now, I guess “hoping” and “praying” are the best things I have to offer.

    I’m already entrenched in a fundraiser through the American Cancer Society. I’ll be dedicating my efforts and fundraising on your behalf, Brandie.

  27. You Rock, Brandie!
    Your strength, your courage and the deluge of cookies you’ll receive will seriously stack the odds in your favor. You epitomize ‘giving’ to so many of us and now you get to receive from the very people that you’ve touched and inspired. Looking forward to lightening the burden in any way we can and coming up with a recipe for cookies with bacon – just for you!
    Big Hugs!
    Ted

  28. Brandie,
    1. Thanks for sharing this painful news. I know that you know your not alone, sometimes that makes all the difference right there.
    2. For what its worth, my mother has had breast cancer twice and her attitude and determination are very similar to yours. I have no doubt that you will come through treatment fine. We do the local mothers day walk so that we can help find a cure.

    I know that I have only met you once, but you are someone that people should hold in high regard because of that “Sparkle and Sass”.

    Let Me/Us anyone know if you need something, anything.

    Larry J.

  29. Oh my gosh. I certainly hope that you have caught it early enough here so that you can be part of the high survival rate.

    Know that my thoughts are positive vibes are being sent your way.

  30. Brandie ~ If there is any thing that I can do for you ~ I am here. You are such a brilliant, passionate, full of some positive light and energy! Wishing you strength, hope, and a complete recovery.

    Thank you for sharing something so personal – you will have helped so many friends, families, and strangers.

    xoxo my friend!

    Kelly Lieberman @tribe2point0

  31. I’m sorry to hear this news. You are brave to share this with all of us.

    I believe your determined and loving spirit will see you through this ordeal. You are a strong woman and mother. You can kick Cancer’s ass!

    #Brandieiskickingcancersass

    Prayers and positive healing vibes coming your way,

    Lisa @ pbajmom

  32. Brandie-
    So sorry to be reading this! Good luck to you in your upcoming battle. We’ll keep you in our prayers, and help you however possible. Best of luck to you!
    P.S. Next time I’m out there I’ll bring cookies!

  33. Brandie,

    Oh, my heavens – how did I miss this one?

    I’m in the same boat – No history of cancer in my family. Though I’ve had other challenges. I’m compelled to tell you that surgery is not so traumatic as it was even 5 years ago. You will do great!

    But those are just words. I can only imagine what you’re thinking.

    It is evident you have a strong, wonderful support system. And, if you’ll have me, I’ll be there too.

    My heart is with you.

    ~Keri

  34. I’m one of those who just learned about this as I stumbled today to your blog. First and foremost *BIG HUG* Second, a positive attitude is what you have and that’s the first and most important thing to have. Please know you are in my prayers and I’ll be thinking about you. If there is anything at all that you need, please don’t hesitate. <3

  35. So sorry to hear about this Brandie. Brave of you to come out and tell everyone, which in turn means we can all bring our thoughts and energy together to help, even from across the Atlantic.

    Wishing you the speediest of recoveries. UsGuys stick together… 🙂

  36. Hi Brandie,

    I found you via The Animated Woman’s blog. I’m doing the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer for a 2nd year – would you mind if I put you on the list of people I’m walking in honor of?

    I hope everything went well on Monday.

    Erica 🙂

    1. Thank you, Erica!! I would be completely honoured to be on your list and truly grateful to there with all the others you are walking for!!

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