I have pretty much been open here, have clearly stated what is private and what is shareable in my life. I drew clear boundaries and lines and for the most part that has always been respected. I struggle with those boundaries quite frequently. So, now the time has come where once again the lines are going to become blurred.
I am a very private person with a close intimate group of friends and while I realize the life that I have created in the Social Media world is very public, I have for the last several years been able to keep a good chunk of my private life just that private. I have also, clearly, stated that, this blog, my words, I will use to help, inform and even entertain. I always hope that my words, thoughts and experiences can help someone as they struggle or celebrate the same things that I do, that perhaps, I can make someone feel not so alone.
With those thoughts warring in my head, heart and soul, I have come to a very hard decision. I have opted to share with you all, something that is going to challenge me in a way that I have never known. I wish that I could keep this private, that I could be brave enough to not share but I’m not. I am going to need you all and perhaps, I can help someone. Perhaps, this particular struggle will not be so much about me.
I have breast cancer.
I’m going to let that sink in for a moment. It’s ok, take a deep breath. I apologize if this comes as a shock, I was rather shocked, myself. Yes, I’m under 40. No, there is no history in my family. Yes, I am slightly worried. Yes, I have told my family. I apologize if I haven’t told you myself and you are finding out this way.
As for the rest, I don’t know all the nitty gritty. I do know that I have the most common type of Cancer. There is a high survival rate. I am headed to a surgeon, yes, surgery will be involved, DUH, rite? After, I meet with the surgeon, a plan will be determined. It seems fairly straight forward and easy, however, I doubt that it will be either of those things!!
I will be taking y’all along through all of this. I am certain some days will be better than others and there may or not be a rant or two tossed out. I have an amazing family, fantastic friends and I know that I’m not alone. I thank all of you for this.
p.s. Please send cookies!!!